ok so guess what! i have a date! go figure! it’s this saturday! thought maybe you 5 who actually read my blogs might want to know! i’m excited! dinner and a movie! he only gave me a couple hints: good dinner for once. and a sad romance full of british poets! we shall see!
oh and i pretty much love the band The Wedding!! it’s one of my new favorites! especially the song Redeem! YAY! laterdays! 10/15/09
Today a woman came through my line at work. She was very old and small, but really nice. By the time she had finished checking out and began to walk away, her perfume made its way over to me. It was very strong and overpowering, but not in a bad way. It instantly reminded me of my great grandmother. Nanaw has passed away, but at that moment I remembered every detail I ever knew of her. I don’t remember very much, being as young as I was when she died, but I do remember things.
The perfume was sweet like molasses; just like my Nanaw. I felt like I could almost taste it. It reminded me of all the sweet treats she would give us (namely: double bubble gum, milkshakes, and fig newtons). She was always so ready to forgive us if we did anything wrong. She was happy and she smiled. She was always smiling. The thought made me smile.
The perfume also smelled warm. If only I could get close enough to the fragrance, I’m so sure I could’ve felt the warmth too. It was the kind of warmth you can only get when you’re sitting in someone’s lap; someone who loves you. The kind of warmth you can only get from someone rescuing you from an injury, and telling you with compassion “oh, sweet girl, that’s only a little scrape. It won’t even bruise” whether it’s true or not. Nanaw had that warmth.
The scent was bright like the sun and unknowingly demanded attention; just like Nanaw. She walked into the room, and everyone looked her way. Everything was brightened (even her and papaws house, which daddy always called a cave), and smiles spread from her face to each person in the room as we all waited to hear if she had anything to say.
The perfume was bold and fierce, and Nanaw wasn’t afraid of anything. Now, to a young me, not being afraid of anything pretty much meant that she could search a dark closet, full of shoes and jackets, to kill a skittering cockroach so that her little grandchild could sleep ok, but that made her a brave hero. She always said what she knew and what she thought, and Nanaw ALWAYS got the last word.
The perfume swept comfort through my mind like the many times she had the family gather around the dinner table and, together, eat the most delicious food you’ve ever tasted: fried chicken, mashed potatoes, and her famous flat biscuits that were ONLY right when they had three finger marks on the top of each. We were family (whether we wanted to be or not) when Nanaw made our food.
She was helpful and kind and wise. She always knew how to have fun and work hard, and she knew exactly what to say to get the rest of us to do the same. Her yard was where my earliest adventures started and were made so much more exciting by the wild flowers and the animals that also seemed to be drawn into her company. Her house was a fortress of many rooms and passageways that could only be found when in the company of a sister. When I think of Nanaw, I recall my fondest memory of her: sitting in her lap while she sat in her big chair. Nikki was on the ground at our feet and the three of us were snapping green beans. My parents and various aunts and uncles were scattered on the floor and couches talking and laughing while some sports game was playing on the TV for papaw and the guys (who were never really watching it until one of us tried to change the channel).
Just like they were at work earlier, my eyes are red and watery. The other occupants of the green cove springs Starbucks are glancing anxiously my way, no doubt wondering what wrackspurst has flown into my ear. So I’m gunna go order a hot chocolate and enjoy the rest of this very restful and relaxing evening. I’ll read my new book and later meet up with friends for dinner and a movie night. Later days! 10-9-09
ok so i have a quiz tomorrow on the Ilead by Homer. it’s really hard to read but once you’ve gone through each paragraph about 7 times and you actually understand what it’s saying you can really get into it. i don’t know if i get it enough to actually answer questions about it but we’ll see 
anyways…..so you know….achilles might be a spoiled little half-god brat-face who thinks as highly of himself as everyone else thinks of him (agamemnon notwithstanding)….but i like him!! hi fights like crazy nonsense and he’s majorly, darkly funny with his choice of words!! “I only wish my fury would compel me to cut away your flesh and eat it raw for what you’ve done.” WHOA ….talk about an angry warrior!! laterdays 9/17
Ok so I have decided that the temperature inside of a store should directly correlate to that of the outdoor temperature!! Right now I’m sitting in my car outside of wendy’s enjoying a loverly frosty and chicken nuggets!! “Why are you sitting in your car”, you ask. “are you in a hurry to leave? Is wendy’s packed?” No, neither of these reasons are mine! I still have an hour before I have to be at Hibernia for the crossing! And there almost NO ONE inside wendy’s….and I think I know why! It’s only 20 below in there!!!!!!!! Eating establishments these days….! I guess because it’s summer they think they need to up the AC but seriously guys. Its’ all rainy and stormy all day and everyone knows that when you’re soaking wet, going inside the AC is like 5 times colder than when you’re dry! So HELLOOOOO…turn the heat up some!!!! Those of us who don’t have the cold tolerance of Eskimos find it extremely difficult to work up the courage to go indoors when temps are at an altime low! I actually had to bring a blanket to school today, just so I wouldn’t keel over in my Film class from three hours of shivering!! It’s ridiculous!! That is all. laterdays 8/31
Ok so this is my first blog of the school year. I have just started my second year at st johns river community college and it’s pretty cool so far! I’m taking humanities 1, intro to lit, and film as a narrative art! I really like my humanities and film class. And lit isn’t bad at all so this should be a good semester!! Right now I’m sitting in starbucks with my friend alan doing “homework” and by that I mean listening to music on itunes. Hey…it’s not our fault the starbucks wifi isn’t working!! Anyways just thought I’d get this blog back up and going again! Maybe the school year will bring about some interesting happenings that I can’t help but share with the whole 5 people that read this Haha!! Just keep in mind what I said before about the dates. Just because I posted it on a certain day doesn’t mean that’s when I wrote it. I write them on my laptop, then when I have internet acces I’ll post it! So the date in the actual blog itself is correct J I’ll write More some other time. Laterdays! 8/29
ok so this blog is the first in a long time but i’ve decided to stop apologizing for all the space between blogs. you’ll get what you get 
that being said…
ever notice that when you have really intense dreams you wake up in whatever mood the dream was? FOR INSTANCE: (now keep in mind that your dreams are alot more intense to you than they are to others when you’re trying to explain them so what is scary or sad to you in a dream would be laughable to others!) i had this one dream that involved my two top favorite actors coming to florida for a party that i had planned for them and my friends not telling me that our “canceled” party was actually still going on. I found out in my dream that my best friends (abi, ashley, candace, kathryn) had done all these things behind my back and were hanging out with my favorite actors without me!! in the dream i was totally floored and absolutely enraged, splenetic, exacerbated, indignant, and flat out tumultuously ANGRY!! i woke up shortly after and i was fuming mad!! an easier way to explain this would be after having a really scary dream you wake up breathing hard and sweating! like that pretty much. one time i had a really really amazingly good dream and i woke up all happy all morning!! much like i am if i start my day off with a chocolate milkshake! anyways, this has happened to me recently so i thought why not share this observation with the world (and by that i mean the 5 people that read this blog). i’ll write later though. i’m at Just’s and he and daniel are waiting on my spot on video game talents laterdays!!
here’s a pic of marty for those that were wanting to see what he looks like!! this is one day at school when we decided to put all our inhibitions aside and play ping pong in the student center! its alot of fun!!
here’s justin and marty when abi met us all for lunch after our classes were out! we went to mcdonalds and had alot of fun. i laughed way too hard!! i just thought this pic was funny cuz they were so into that kids meal bag!
ok so this past wednesday was my third night in 2CUBED (7th and 8th grades) and i LOVE IT!!! most of the kids don’t know me yet but i’m sure it’ll happen. a few of them thought i was actually there as a student which was funny. but i’m having a blast. anyways it’s going well and i just introduced myself to the youth pastor who just started there and now i’m planning on going to youth camp for my first year as a couselor!!! i’m so siked!
Alright NEW FRIEND ALERT!! Two people from my sunday school class are working in the little youth with me so i’ve gotten to know them alot. Daniel is a really funny, nice guy that i end up following around everywhere cuz i have no clue what i’m doing lol. hopefully i’m not annoying him yet. Michelle is a suepr sweet, little, spunky girl who is always encouraging to me. then randy, who is a drummer for the contemporary service sometimes, who is also in my sunday school class. he’s pretty hilarious, and totally triggers the worst of my gullibility! they are all really great and i love them to death. it’s nice having great christian friends that i know i can talk to about anything and who are also just a pleasure to be around. i enjoy all their company!
Last night was the night of the ballet. The russain ballet came to the theatre by my school and performed sleeping beauty! so i bought five tickets and me, abe, ashley, justin, and randy all when to the ballet! we got all dressed up and after the boys waited on us FOREVER we were finally ready. so we arrived, watched the show (where i saw my favorite teacher, mr lafond), then went out to eat at ihop!! we stayed there tili at least 12 or 12:30 then came back to my house and watched the Italian Job which i highly recommend to EVERYONE!!! the boys finally left around 3:30 and us girls had some much needed girl talk then went to bed by 430. it was soooooooooooooooooooo much fun!!! but i’m super tired. I’m about to put in a movie and wrap up in some nice warm fluffy blankets. But i can’t go to sleep just yet because of one more bit of news
Abi is out right now, as i type this, on her very first DATE!!! and i couldn’t think of a better person for her to be with. her date is none other than my precious justin!!! Just took her to Monster Jam! i’m sooo jealous! but i’m sure she’s having fun. i made sure justin was being a gentleman and told her she looked nice and that he smelled good and wouldnt’ keep her out too late! he promised he wouldn’t : ) so anyways abe’s calling as soon as she gets home. gotta be up for her! alrighty i’m out. laterdays!!!
OK…so upsdates!!!!! school is crazy busy lately. my life is like class work class work class work! BUT it’s cool. made a couple great friends. Justin has become my best guy friend. the best a girl could ask for. we basically live at each others houses. he’s always there for me…ready to encourage me when i need it and i do my best to return the favor. Marty is a really tall, really funny guy that was in my humanities class last semester. we both have a break in classes at the same time this semester while justin has to go to class. we just randomly started talking and now it’s like tradition that we sit together and talk and then walk to our classes together. I never really heard him talk before but i guess it’s cuz we didn’t really know each other. we seem to have a different topic every day. poetry(he’s a writer), our favorite books, the music we listen to, football!!! fun stuff. I just recently met kyle. he is a good kid that’s pretty laid back. he always gives me a hug when i see him which always makes me happy. i haven’t known him long but i hope i’ll have many chances to become a better friend to him. I love the three of them and i’m glad at least one of them is always at school for me to hang out with!!
last sunday i joined first baptist church of middleburg and tonight (in about a half hour) i’m starting work in the jr high part of the youth group. i’m absolutely ecstatic but super nervous too. so pray for me guys!! anyways i really have to go or i’ll be late!! : ) YAY!!!!! i’ll fill you in later on how it all goes!!! laterdays!
ok so i just got home about an hour ago from the movies with a friend. the friend is adam and i met him through justin. we went to see Marley and Me (second time for me). I had a really good time and i sobbed twice as much as the first time i saw it. Still one of my favorite movies : ) anyways i’m super tired but i REALLY need to do yoga. I skipped a whole day of exercise and i felt really bad!! well it’s not as if i skipped an entire day….me and abi got lost trying to find the dirt bike track that justin was at. instead we found the river and decided to go there. we walked around alot so i got some work out lol. anyways so i’m off to do some yoga and then it’s to bed. then i’m getting up to start my second week of school. i have a feeling the homeworks about to start flying in and piling up! this marks the end of my social life. well it was fun while it lasted…..i’ll remember it always……time to move on now. laterdays!
